Day 35

Day 35: a letter to an ex

Dear Thor,

I'm using the lame code name I came up for you in 9th grade. I will, therefore, sign off using the lame code name you gave me in return. Anonymity is nice, isn't it? Anyway...

You were my very best friend. From practically the time we officially met in 9th grade till you got back from your mission, you were the person who knew me best and loved me anyway. You always encouraged me to reach my goals and to achieve more than I thought I could, and I owe you a lot for that.

In 9th grade, you liked me but I didn't like you till you liked Kaley. Sigh. 9th grade drama.

In 10th grade, I could date but you were still too young. Good thing we had history together and you kept me sane in there!

In 11th grade, you liked me again but I freaked out. We were too good as friends and I didn't want to ruin it. So we quit talking when you started dating one of my friends and I started dating one of hers.

In 12th grade, we started hanging out again and before I knew it, you were showing signs of liking me and I was okay with that. And so we started dating. I had never been treated so thoughtfully before and, up until Deg, since. I was a priority to you and you made sure I knew that. I needed that. I can't even list the amazing things we did together. Or the dumb things. Like watching Monsters Inc a bajillion times. Nah, that was awesome.

When we went off to college, we went to different places, and I didn't know what to do with myself. I was rude and thoughtless and that's why we quit dating. I've never really apologized for what an absolute ass I was. (Sorry everyone for the swear!) It didn't take too long, though, till you forgave me and we were friends again. And I took that for granted and I'm sorry.

About halfway through your mission, we started writing a lot and I was so excited to be connecting with you. It was so good to be friends again. It wasn't meant to last, though. You got back, we hung out a time or two, but things were different. And before I knew it, you were engaged and married. That left me very sad for a long time. It felt not only like  I was losing my best friend. It's hard to be BFFs with someone of the opposite gender once they marry. Not that I wasn't happy you'd found happiness. I just felt sad that I had to be left out.

Life has moved on, and though we'll never be BFFs again, I want you to know I still think of you and the times we had together fondly. You are such a wonderful person, and I hope you forgive me for being such an immature little girl all those years ago.You'll probably never know how much your friendship meant to me then and still means to me now in the form of all those memories. Oh, and one last thing: Harry Potter is still better than Lord of the Rings! :)

Most sincerely,

Echo